Have a Peaceful Day in the Ashes of the Republic

We left for this reason.  We knew the Revenge Tour would be ugly.

We are living our best life away from the USA.  But we can’t stop seeing and hearing the news from America… and this past week, our home state of Minnesota. That tragedy hit home when  my husband said, “That could have been you.”

I think it could have been me who was shot in the face three times by an ICE agent who felt disrespected by a woman.  If you know me, you know I might have been more confrontational than that sweet woman.  I might have been shot 10 times without even trying to move.

After all, I am a F&#king bitch.  A case study.  I have no time for pedophiles or draft dodgers or rapists or liars or traitors or con men or grifters or power-hungry people who will do anything to get more powerful and dump the Constitution.  In short, I have no time for bullshit.

My whole life, I have believed in America.  I have believed in the American Dream.  My people came from Germany and Norway and settled in Florida, Minnesota, and North Dakota.  They scratched out a living and taught their children to respect America. 

I am also a student of history, and I learned the cautionary tales of Hitler and 1930s Germany.  Hitler was just trying to make Germany great again, improve the economy, and get rid of journalists, immigrants, and the enemy within.

Now, Fascists have come to power in America… thanks to the poor, disenfranchised white men.  

Yes, a female future was too much to bear, so they voted for a felon.  This country hates women. And sadly, the women who prop this demented old fool up helped make it happen too.

I am 55 years old. I am called young lady, kiddo, crazy, bossy, bitchy, hysterical, and stupid.  I don’t accept that.  I am a grown-ass woman.  And I am tired.

Tired of the legions of sycophants explaining away what we all see. What we all hear.

Tired of pretending it’s just “political differences.”

Tired of watching women who don’t agree with the Mango Mussolini being called libtards, paid agitators, Antifa, etc.  The woman in Minneapolis was dropping her kid off at school.  Her dog was in the backseat.  She wasn’t storming the U.S. Capitol and threatening to kill the Vice President.  Then she would not have been shot. She would have been called a hero.

I know what I saw on January 6, 2021 and I know what I saw on January 7, 2026. 

And yes, it was me, in that SUV.  My blood in the snow.  Along with every woman who refuses to keep her mouth shut and do what the man says.

Going to See Jimmy

I flew to Atlanta from my home in South Florida to visit a friend who is battling cancer.  And I stayed a day longer to see Jimmy.

I lived in Georgia most of my life. Arriving from Los Angeles in 1992 to work for CNN, I had an opportunity to report on the work of our greatest former president Jimmy Carter. After he left the oval office, Jimmy had his hand in everything from human rights to Habitat for Humanity. From brokering peace and monitoring elections to eradicating diseases… he did so much because he believed it was the right thing to do.  Jimmy believed in people. It didn’t matter where you came from, the color of your skin, your politics or what’s in your bank account, Jimmy believed you deserved respect.

Piles of flowers in remembrance of Jimmy Carter January 4, 2025

Former President Jimmy Carter was lying in repose at the Carter Presidential Library in the heart of Atlanta starting the night of January 4th. Jimmy had just arrived from Plains on his way to his state funeral in Washington.  I talked one of my oldest and dearest friends, Suzanne, to go with me to see Jimmy.

Temperatures were in the 40s when the visitation of Jimmy Carter began on January 4, 2025

Since I had arrived unprepared to stand outside in the Atlanta cold to see Jimmy, Suzanne took me to a mall to buy some warmer clothes.  I told the teenager who took my money that we were “Going to see Jimmy Carter tonight,” and she said, “Have fun at the concert.”

I hate that schools don’t teach history anymore.  It is why we are in our current chaos… but that is a much more complicated discussion.  I digress.

The walk to see Jimmy

It was a cold Atlanta night and we walked past the Secret Service and the Atlanta Police, through a security checkpoint into the Carter Presidential Library to join the line to see Jimmy.  From outside to inside we slowly made our way through the decades of Jimmy’s life.

From Plains, to Atlanta, to Washington to the world. Unlike other former U.S. Presidents, when Jimmy left the oval office… he kicked off an incredible second act.  He was mobilized by a sense of duty and honor.  With great power comes great responsibility and Jimmy used his status and a former president as a force for good.

But where I saw Jimmy the most was not in the things that represented his life in the presidential library… it was in the faces of the people who came to pay their respects. People of every color, every age, seemingly every walk of life.  Georgians who wanted to honor the man from Plains who served his country in the military, as a governor, as a president and finally as a champion for human rights around the world.

When we got to the flag-draped casket surrounded by the U.S. Military Honor Guard, I was moved to tears.  I was surprised at my emotion.  Jimmy Carter didn’t know me, but I considered him to be a good man.  Good men are in short supply in the current “Bro Culture.”  I mourned not just for Jimmy and what he represented but for my country, for women, for minorities, and anyone who has been demonized by the angry little orange man and his minions.

Jimmy never stopped being Jimmy. Kind, thoughtful, caring, humble, and human.

After seeing Jimmy and brief prayer, Suzanne and I signed the visitor’s book and received a prayer card just like any other visitation.  The next stop was nearby Manuel’s Tavern which has deep roots to my CNN past and Jimmy Carter.  Jimmy announced his run for Governor of Georgia in the 1970’s at Manuel’s, and he forged a bond with owner Manuel Maloof.

Jimmy’s portrait at Manuel’s Tavern

We wanted to toast Jimmy one more time in one of his favorite places. I asked the waiter what Jimmy would have had to drink and he said, “A tea.”  We picked something a little harder to drink, but it was not lost on me I should have ordered a sweet tea.

Jimmy Carter was our 39th President.  He was elected when I six years old and I really only remember the final day of his presidency when the Iranian Hostages were released.  I was a child of the Reagan Era and became a Republican when I voted in my first presidential election in 1988.  I was a Republican until my political party left me in 2016.

But my respect for Jimmy never left me. I felt like he was my people.  I think we would have been friends.

A fan of Southern Rock, Jimmy probably would have loved being called a Simple Man, like the Lynryd Skynyrd song.  “Forget your lust for the rich man’s gold.  All that you need is in your soul… All that I want for you, my son, is to be satisfied. And be a simple kind of man.”

Simply an amazing life. Simply an amazing legacy.  A simple man from Georgia who is respected around the world.  I was honored to go see Jimmy on a cold Atlanta night, just weeks before the end of the Great American Experiment.

Thank you, Jimmy.

At the exit of the Carter Presidential Library January 4, 2025